May 2012
58 posts
Another EIC first... Hate mail?
For the first time ever, I recieved what borders on the line of hate mail. I walked into work this afternoon to find a letter addressed to me on my office door. I unlock my office, walk inside and slowly open the letter. What I found was appalling. It was a letter detailing all of the problems I’ve made with the MSU Reporter, and how this past year’s paper was the worst in ten years....
I miss kisses.
I think the thing I miss most about being in a relationship is the kisses. I miss the intimacy associated with simply kissing someone. I miss the feeling that, even if just for a moment, you are the only focus in that individuals’ world, and their yours. I miss the anticipation of a kiss and the feeling of euphoria you get after you kiss someone. I miss feeling like I matter to someone, even...
Hey darling.
“Hello, dear, Wendy, How are you doing? Deep in thought tonight? Well, sweetie, I am too, But I’m deep in thought, Deep in thought, of me and you. ‘Cause you’re such an anchor to me, You’re one of those people that holds me together, That keeps my feet on solid ground. And I don’t know what I’d do without you, I think I’d fall apart.”
The...
I like being alone. When I’m alone, I don’t have to impress anyone. I don’t have to live up to anyone’s expectations of me. There’s no one to judge me, to tell me that what I’m doing is wrong. It’s all on me in those moments of solitude. I had a conversation with a friend last night about being alone. He argued that he had no expectations of me. Of course...
I hate boys.
I’ve grown to hate Tumblr and all it has become. Not because of what anybody posts, but because of who I think about when I read many of these posts. Every time I see a cute post about relationships or whatnot, this one guy automatically pops into my head. But the thing is - I don’t actually think about them when it’s not triggered by something. I don’t want to like them,...
“FOR WHAT IT’S WORTH: IT’S NEVER TOO LATE OR, IN MY CASE, TOO EARLY TO BE WHOEVER...”
– F SCOTT FITZGERALD (via henryevan)
“That is part of the beauty of all literature. You discover that your longings...”
– F. Scott Fitzgerald (via aquaticwonder)
[I'm not used to this.]
Hey, I kinda like you just a little bit. Regardless of who I’m talking to at the time, I’d rather be speaking with you. And this is only after one date. I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me, but you intrigue me. I want to spend more time with you and get to know you better. I want to see what we could become, if anything. I don’t normally like guys, especially when...
As much as I say that I love living on my own, I really, really love being home. I love being in my chaotic house, even if I have to sleep on a couch. I love being around my crazy family, constantly making jokes and being ridiculous. It makes me feel as though I actually belong somewhere when the rest of the world shuts me out. It’s the one place I can go where I know I always have someone...
I was going through old boxes of things a few days ago in a search to find things for my new office. What I found, however, was an awful, gut-wrenching feeling I can’t seem to shake. In a box full of old picture, theatre programs and cards, I found a picture of me and two othe friends from middle school. Off in the background of the picture sat a girl I could barely recognize, but after...
I am a fucking mess.
I’m slowly falling apart, and rather than scrambling about, picking up the pieces of my shattered life, I’m letting it happen. I want to lose it. I want to feel bad. I don’t want to be happy. If I wanted to be happy, I could easily find a way to create joy within my life. But that’s not what I want. I want to be alone. I want to be sad. I want to feel bad for myself. I want...
Questions, part five.
Has anyone ever told you they wanted to marry you? Yes. My most recent ex told me he wanted to marry my all the time. Originally, I didn’t understand it, though after a while, I grew to accept it - even like the idea. It’s weird to think about it now though, considering I don’t want to be married.
Ever liked someone else’s boyfriend or girlfriend? Of course. Everyone has...
Questions, part four.
Have you ever had your heart broken? In order to have my heart broken, I would have had to actually fully given my heart to someone, which is something I’ve never actually done before.
Have you ever broken someone’s heart? I can’t say for certain, but I believe that I have at least once. They’ll get over it though. I can’t imagine being so great that someone would...
Questions, part three.
Who makes you happiest right now? Honestly, myself. I’ve learned lately that I’m the only person I should rely upon for my happiness. For a while, I was completely dependent on others and I realized that I will never truly be happy until I can be happy on my own, without anyone else.
Do you want to get married & have children one day? Nope. I want to be a war correspondent. You...
Questions, part two.
Do you like your parents? Of course I like my parents. Well, I guess that’s not really obvious. I have always been really close to my dad, and growing up, I had a lot of problems with my mother, but sometime over the past year or so, I’ve realized that life is too short to dislike anyone, especially one of your parents. So, lately, we’ve been talking a lot more and I’m...
Questions, part one.
Who was the last person to call you baby/babe? Honestly, I have no idea. It’s probably been a while. In the past 24 hours, I’ve been called dear, darling and love multiple times, but babe/baby in generally restricted to people I’m actually dating.
Anyone crushing on you? How do you suggest I know who’s crushing on me? Honestly, I have suspicions of people who may like be,...
"No longer single. No longer depressed."
How sad that to so many people, being in a relationship is the only thing that gives them happiness. Sure, I think about how nice it would be to have a boyfriend every once in a while, but I don’t judge my happiness based on a man. My happiness comes from my job, my friends, my family, myself. I am happy because I accept my circumstances, because I know that, regardless of whatever is going...
